• Mon, 00:48: forgot how much i liked this song http://t.co/HASRuY5s
• Mon, 00:55: Bon Jovi - Wanted Dead Or Alive http://t.co/dmQ6s6ih
• Mon, 01:03: another fav http://t.co/kO20X74R
• Mon, 01:08: Saliva - Always http://t.co/2V2puYUo
• Mon, 01:11: Rob Zombie - Dragula http://t.co/Pj7dnC48
• Mon, 01:12: Rob Zombie - Living Dead Girl http://t.co/wNUGa6W3
• Mon, 01:24: Queen of the Damned - Slept so long http://t.co/DMCCVMSf
• Mon, 01:28: Forsaken - Queen Of The Damned [David Draiman] http://t.co/8ytHFvFF
• Mon, 01:31: Static-X - Cold (Video) http://t.co/DXwH3Ihz
• Mon, 01:35: System Chester Bennington Queen of the Damned [Soundtrack] [Clean] http://t.co/Pdxv6T5z

• Sat, 18:05: Why oh why? http://t.co/rHF4mvt1
• Sat, 23:51: Coming to acceptance and moving on!!!! http://t.co/K3zS9FL6
• Sat, 23:55: Not my normal book but a must, I think!!!! http://t.co/P5EjroBI

Ok, I have patience issues or mainly the lack thereof.  I hate things not going according to how I planned or my time table.  I am railing against this one just because I don’t like it.  I’ve accepted it but it’s the principle of the thing.  I just have to show or air my dissatisfaction with it before I’m good.  Okay enough of the gloom and doom so to speak.  The good news of the week is that some things actually came together with the business and I can give you an idea of what’s to come.  It’s been hard to keep positive when you feel your getting hosed every chance they get. We got the website and are awaiting its design and construction.  Once we have been notified that it’s up and running we can then move forward with the program and see if we get some money out of it. So I’m praying that it works.  My Dad and I are both tired of spending money on other peoples get rich quick scams.  So here’s to innovation, quick wit and a wish and a prayer. Till next post,

Ruth

• Fri, 14:36: only a few will get it lol http://t.co/RG6fGzsO
• Fri, 22:05: my mindset at this moment!!!! http://t.co/i85FrvNn

I don’t know how many of you are readers but one of my all time favorite escapes from the reality of this life is to read.  I enjoy reading many genres but I have to say that the one that I read the most is the Paranormal Romance genre.  I have sooo many favorite authors from this genre. It really does have everything a girl could or would want to read about. It kinda takes you out of the accepted norm but you have the normal problems that occur in today’s society to deal with. Who doesn’t wonder about the old myths and legends and whether or not they would fit into a modern world. What I mean is who doesn’t wonder if vampires actually can love and be loved? Can they actually subsist in society? And of course do they pay bills if you are of the undead? I’m sorry I just had to put that one in there.  I have to give these women who write these stories and create these worlds kudos because they have great imaginations to mix the old myths and legends and incorporate them into the modern world.  I mean they make it seem completely plausible and rationale even though it so completely out of the box!  Now I just used vampires as an example because it’s the most common. But there are many different areas and interests for people who read this genre and don’t like the vampires.  Some other examples would be the were-animals, gods and goddesses from all the different pantheons surviving and integrating with modern society, and last and by no means least genetically altered, psychically enhanced men and women of paramilitary special ops teams; and that’s just a few.  I just find that when I get to the point that reality is crashing in or I’m severely stressed out; I need to unplug and pick up a book.  It just allows me to turn my mind off and rest. I can forget my problems for a little bit and read and focus on someone else’s problems no matter how unorthodox they may be.  I can just read a book and play music with or without headphones and just zone out.  To me it’s the perfect escape.  I know a lot of people have different ways of dealing; whether its going out of doors, exercising, eating or even playing with technology. I just find that in today’s technologically driven world to unwind and destress, I have to “unplug” from all of that and go old school and read an actual bound book.  Hmmmm…. maybe that’s why I’ve felt so blah and unable to get things to come together.  I’ve been plugged in to my computer for the past 3 months trying to get this business off the ground.  CLARITY, it’s amazing when it happens. I do believe I’m gonna “unplug” and read a book. Till next post readers!

Ruth

Trying to start an online business from home and raise your non school age child is very hard. I find I’m struggling to find that balance or a semblance of balance to make it work.  Take today for instance; I spent the day dealing with legal documents for student loans and other matters that needed attending to.  Once that was done, I had to help my oldest with her homework and fix supper.  It sometimes leaves me wondering whether or not I’ve taken on too much or if everything is just coming to a head faster than I thought or wanted it too.  I want to be able to provide for my children.  I know this is a valid business and a great opportunity to do so; but am I letting distractions and disordered thoughts psych me out of trying or committing?  I’m a mother so my children come first. I don’t feel that anything they need me to do or ask me for is a distraction. It’s part of being a parent and one that I wouldn’t trade the world for.  So the questions I’m left asking myself are;  am I letting other distractions, supposed wants and needs, interfere and allowing them to pull me into other directions?  Am I spending too much of my already limited time doing things that aren’t really productive or conducive to making this business work? I’m hoping that just by blogging about this it will help me get some order or perspective to my thoughts.  I’m just left with that feeling of dissatisfaction and failure as well as being utterly confounded as to why I’m struggling now instead of 3 months ago.  So I’ve come up with a game plan so to speak and it’s to recommit to this business.  I must find the time regardless of what goes on during my day or what problems arise and must be dealt with to make this a productive and lucrative, profitable enterprise.  Even if it’s working until the wee hours of the morning to make it work.  Till my next post readers.

Ruth

• Sun, 21:20: Nonsensical Ramblings to clear my mind!!! http://t.co/w9qbWuaB

Today has been kind of a weird day. I have found myself not wanting to really commit to anything or even get the gumption to actually work.  I had church this morning and thought that I was singing in the worship team. I found out differently and I was okay with it. It wasn’t like my morning was totally ruined.  I got to socialize with some people from the church and a couple in particular. We are each other’s accountability partners so to speak and we just love to chat too!  So I sit through both services, go through Easter choir practice, and go home. I mean I am just so blah it takes me an hour to figure out what to eat.  Now mind you I should be starving because I hadn’t eaten anything at all since 6:30 am; but I wasn’t.  I finally decide to fix a corn dog and finish it off. I make some phone calls and finally start to cook supper.  It was bacon, eggs, biscuits, and gravy. I help the girls get ready for bath time and bed time. My oldest drops right off to sleep and my youngest I rock to sleep. An hour goes by and she is still awake. I think okay maybe she is reaching that age where she needs to start going to bed herself. Well it didn’t work.  I do believe that her Pappaw is giving it a try to see if he can get her to sleep. I do know that something is changing.  For the past week and a half maybe two weeks, she has been climbing in bed with mommy. I know that they are getting over being sick but that wouldn’t cause this drastic change of sleeping behavior.  A couple of nights ago, she just screamed she was not sleeping in her bed and wanted mom’s bed.  So I’m hoping that maybe being stern and enforcing the bedtime routine will help get her back into some normalcy.  So here I sit just rambling on about my blah, and weird day. Well not really so much weird to ya’ll but at least to me it was.  I’m also debating on whether to change the style of my blog as well as my user picture.  I think I just have so many nonsensical thoughts running through my head I must share. I think it’ll help me be able to work tomorrow and work on the other matter that I must deal with.  So here’s to the nonsensical ramblings of a twenty-eight year old mother of two. Till my next post.

Ruth